army chronicles #3

oh well back to the army again i guess.since its pretty much my life anyway. okay theres one good news and one bad news so i guess it all balances out right haha. well okay i guess i'll just start crapping about my army life. aand actually it doesnt really balance out cos the bad news is really quite bad. its like as good as getting posted out kinda thing. my boss today told me that my move to S2 branch was actually an inevitable thing and i've been handpicked by S2 himself to go over and help him head the media team of 2 other guys. okay wow i've got two guys under me. not a big deal actually we're all working together so yeah. hmm but what really sucks is that i have to leave all my friends behind cos we're working in different offices, i mean kelvin brian nicholas and ker han are really such fun people to be with and besides S2 branch is really so cramped and i dont understand why they actually need me! oh well oh well. at least i get to help out in the NDP'08 show committee kinda thing. thats prolly the only incentive i have in going to S2 branch. and the S2 branch people like Deputy S2 is happy to have me over there la cos he says i would bring much joy and laughter to the branch. but how do i do that when im not even happy with where i am? besides i always see royston getting worked out like a dog la gotta keep helping S2 with his stuff.oh well i guess i gotta make do with where i am and learn to make do with the new friends im gonna have although i'll still miss the old ones. i cant just crap with ker han anytime i want to and besides nat's gonna go also and that sucks too. im losing my friends outside and i cant afford to losemy friends in camp too! oh well thank goodness royston's a nice guy so yeah at least i got him but he's gonna get posted overseas sooner or later and i've to take all the work then! OH MY GOODNESS! okayokay relax i shall get it over and done with..i mean itsonly up to 2009 right how long can it take.hmm. okayokay enough of the emo crap. well i got promoted to the next rank which is Lance Corporal already and its official promotion already haha. i havent sew the rank yet cos im just waiting for my boss to give me the rank then i'll go get it sewn on.and ker han tells me that he rather go army jail than senang diri to me la! am i really that mean. oh well it actually doesnt mean that much la. jus 20bucks extra a month and WOW im 7 mths in the army.big deal. 1 year 4mths plus to go. oh well i shall look forward to my days in S2 branch..and i shall make do with whatever friends and whatever working space that i have in my branch from now on! gotta keep movin on.

God Forgive me.

oh great its been i dont know how long since the last time i posted something on my blog. and well many things have happened duringthis time when i haven't blogged at all cos i guess i was just too lazy to do so.but well now im blogging and i wanna just pour my heart out to God and i hope no one would actually read the posts that i post. hmm anyway where do i start. well i'll start from the actual event of project rigel and awell after that i actually had acrush on ada, one of the girls at projet rigel. i really admired her vigour and energy to be able to last so long without sleep and never failed to have a smile on her face when she was mingling with the kids. well i did admit to her that i had a crush on her which i think wasnt the right thing to do cos what happened after that was really disastrous. she told me she liked me too and yeah we started to get really close even i told her i was gonna leave next time she still refused to let go and she said that she wants to hold on to me. well and me willingly let her and we got really close. then after that we actually went out yesterday and things got really out of hand when physical intimacy started to set in and we went past a point where we really lost our self dignity and the things that we've always believed in. i felt so impure and dirty after that and i realised that probably she just aint the girl for me and i aint ready for such a thing. yes i've been watching couples cuddle and kiss on the roads and in public and im actually envious about them. i wish i was the guy who was receiving then. but then when it actually happens to me, i feel so disgusted. and well i've made a promise to myself that i wouldnt get a girlfriend before i leave singapore and the only girls i would go out with alone are my really good friends and no one else. my mum's right too im really not ready to commit to a relationship cos it really requires lots of energy and time and thats what i really do not have. and besides next year i got ex wallaby and ndp..which would mean i would have even less time for a girl. and i feel really bad to leave ker han like that and he's my buddy i wouldnt want him to be alone when i just run off with some girl like that. he's stood by me many times when i was down and i guess i should repay him by being there for him when he really needs me too. well he did stay over last night and we had a really good chat over some horrible tasting honey ice cream even though it was gelare. there's many things that he hadn't told me and i could tell he was hiding it. hmm its okay la i guess at least he's told me everything. anyway i guess girls are just a hassle after all and i need more time with my army guys and my other friends :D anywa im happy that i had the courage to break everything with ada and make my point clear to her already. well im going to have my lunch now and then after that collect my psp and then after that go with ker han to play pool and swim swim.even though i hate swimming haha. anyway i feel better and happier today than i did yesterday. so the last thing im asking for is..God please forgive me. for I've done you wrong once again.

a week flies by

wow its pretty fast and a week has flew past since i did my last post. well theres exercise valiant mark going on right now so i guess i cant really blog in camp anymore haha.t i guess after those angmohs are gone then i can start blogging in camp and there will be more updates already. well there's quite a number of significant events that happened inthe week that i dint blog at al.hmm well i remember that time on thursday night when we were going to have nights out! hahha we were so excited and there were 8 of us who went to simpang bedok for supper together. i kinda enjoy their company right now. and ns life would be so boring without those guys around! and im hoping that they wouldnt post out or something. but eventually they would have to be posted out cos there are really too many people in S1 branch already haha.hmm then after that i had played pool with sylvester again..sian super cui when i play with him again la i always lose to him but i can beat others.hmm there must be something really wrong.i must become better and better!( and als control my finances at the same time haha.i think im really spending too much money this month already la.i must start eating at the cookhouse more often and only drink soya bean! oh ya i dislike those angmohs being here cos we dont have our twice a week runs anymore! ineed to run and burn fat la otherwise i'd become really fat. okay well today is saturday right. i think 2of the most significant events happenedthis week..! well firstly i went with ker han to the project rigel thingy. and i managed to see the katong special school kids again! i met wei bing hong yi and nigel from katong special school! ha although i dont really enjoy scouts, i just went there cos my heart really reaches out to these less fortunate kids and i really love them!we played games with them and also drew our patrol flag and sang our patol songs..haha i actualy do remember some scouting songs la im how pro can :P. we played captain's ball after that with like ping pong ball and volleyball. the really disgusting part was whenwe used tomatoes and RAW CHICKEN! the kids ripped the head off la how eewww. it was really slimy holding the chicken haha.hmm then after that i went to play pool with laekew and he won a race to 7 while i won a race to 5..he was so insistent on playing punch although i was really reluctant cos i dont wanan play punch with a friend la. hmm well second most significant event was my official first yam meeting! i really enjoyed it...there's really a deep study of the word and i really have to pray hard to be spiritually mature to make a point to understand what the study is all about cos the rest are mostly older than me. it was kinda awkward when i was praying with gillian haha im just kinda freaked out sometimes but i guess God was with me and i survived the prayer and i really enjoy yam sessions and classes..oooh baby caleb is MEGA CUTE! :D hmm its really peaceful and small..exactly what i want a church session to be like haha. and well after that i went for dinner with my relatives...gosh they ordered so much la..with my parents they would never ever order that much food man haha..its really alot! like 7 courses kinda thing..then we went bowling haha im kinda addicted to it actually. hmm and i got 3 strikes in a row again! haha i just need tolearn to become more consistent.but its a really expensive sport. now i think that even pool is cheaper la haha.hmm well I thank God for keeping me safe this whole week and also making me happy almost every single day. atleast i dont feel so depressed anymore and im happy im not thinking htat much about too many things already. and i've also started talking to veronica! haha she's pretty nice la but i can just like ko waiting for her replies haha. okayokay i guess i've said pretty much enough. im just happy that this week was quite a good one for me. tomorow got lunch in church...church anniversary! better get some rest lol i need SLEEEP RAHH!!

babel and strongsmen!

hey guess this is my likeduno what post already la i guess i dont really care also.hm i guess today what most impacted me is that mummy scolded me for degrading her infront of her friends and making her seem very evil.oh well guess its pretty much my fault la i wasnt thinking andi should realy watch what i say also.guess i need to improve that part of my character.gotta keep more to myself lest i hurt others with what i say too. hmm played tennis again with JJ today haha he's rather okay la i guess..whenever he hits the ball over the net it goes really fast and its hard to get.which is actually pretty rare.but well after all he's a nice guy la..hm after that he drove me to my new yam group which was actually meeting at starbucks!haha how cool is that huh.i met some of the members there like nat mei ben jo guoliang and gillian..i think its a rather peaceful group and i would really love to join them haha.its called babel and strongsmen! i havent asked ben(the group leader) why they're called that either.hmm maybe the next time i meet him i shall ask him...lol and he and jo was disappointed cos they thought that jj was actually bringing his girlfriend but it was actually me instead haha!oops sorry ben and jo maybe next time okay! well then after that i headed down to uncle cheelin's place for makan cos both his grand children turned 1month old.okay round about the same time at least so there was really a big party and its expensive also la i heard like its 25bucks per head or something like that.hmm but its a really unique buffet style kinda thing.there were stalls being set up and you could like go to the different stalls and order and you'll get it cooked on the spot so that it wouldnt be cold! oh and there was white wine too haha it was pretty good actually.and i saw da jie! its like dunno after how long then im seeing her again la haha shes still rather pretty although shes stressed up as shes taking her a's now.hmm so yeah today was a pretty enjoyable day after all..well i guess i still nedto learn to control my speech and to think hard before i let anything come out from my mouth.no cursing no swearing and i should be learn to be more encouraging than discouragingg..

army chronicles #2

hey God well im back here again to blog right now.in all seriousness and also casually too haha i dont know how that works but yeah i guess it will somehow.cos you're my main audience anyway. hmm well im at home now cos i took half day off and the other day i get it free cos of the hari raya holiday.thank goodness they counted only half day off and dint take my other half day away.hmm so well i guess things have been pretty okay just that brian jacked me in the strong room today and so far i think thats one of the most painful jacks i've received man haha..well then the day was pretty relaxed cos S1 wasnt in..we went for two canteen breaks la haha.but when S1 came back at night..then there was lots of work to be done already cos exercise valiant mark starts on monday already.US marines are coming down la haha so cool la.and me and kelvin had to do up their bunks by putting some stuff in the bunks like you know important information. then after that i decided to help nick with assignment thats why i only booked out at like 2350! thank goodness i rushed in packing my bag cos we're not supposed to book out after 2359. well tomorrow im gonna go queensway with mummy and john i decided i should spend more time with my family and not complain too much about it already.God has provided me with such wonderful family members that have stood by my side through so many things anyway. i guess thats it for today i dont have many things to share cos there're not many happenings...oh ya its so cooll you know the military security department did a check on us today! its like some surprise check la thank goodness our branch managed to clear everything well. oh and i still need to be more tolerant of stallone.argh i still cant stand him la.hmm i hope there were no findings although i saw DYS3 getting scolded by S2. rahh i dont like S2 now..bully one of my favourite officers la whats this.hmm okay i guess thats it already la.im gonna sleep soon already.tired tired byebye!

HQ coy cohesion!

oh well God, umm things today was actually pretty fun with my friends from my company.the different branches actually got together today and had a morning full of activities. hmm we had the activity at haw par villa and its been a long long while since i've been some sort of excursion trip lol..we kinda seemed like lil kids having to fall in and all that haha.well i've never been to haw par villa before so yeah this was just one opportunity then..we had like amazing race kinda thing around the whole haw par villa and its really sultry and hot la.oh and the whole haw par villa was like full of chinese statues and everything.i dint know my culture was that scary and okay maybe alil rich at the same time. royston and zhong qi called me an english sausage la!we guys were perspiring like mad and i remember zhong qi complaining like mad.oh and they sabo-ed me to go become the group ic haha but in the end i dint really do anything. after that we headed down to vivocity and had our lunch there.haha i loved talking with 2LT calvin la he's such an interesting character and as usual those guys were teasing me about my age again..calling me boy and kid again.its okay i know that deep down inside im a man already haha..and they actually think that im a lunatic to go army so early haha. cos im the special one whose ic number starts with a 90! oh well its okay la then after that we headed down to paradiz centre where we lanned and i pooled cos i dint wanna sit alone in the lan centre.then after a few guys left the place i just took over and i realised there are actually people worse than me in dota lol! hmm then again i guess i still gotta learn to control my language..but i guess its improving other than the occasional slips of the tongue.not bad i still dont use the f word anyway.haha gotta get back to camp soon even if im at home now..well sadly this is the life i lead.but im actually quite happy now and thankful for all the friends that i have right now in the army. thank goodness i didnt choose to leave 3 guards and chose to stay..i have absolutely no regrets at all..well thank you Lord for granting me wonderful people that i can always work with and help me to be more tolerant of stallone and shaun! thats one big barrier that i need to work on..working with people may seem like an easy thing but it aint after all.gotta need a whole lotta patience.well i shall sign off here for now..till then.

army chronicles

lets see i guess i pretty much do the same thing everyday so i guess there's not much point saying the same thing over and over again in my blog otherwise my blog posts would really be meaningless.haha oh well no eone ever reads my blog anyway cos they dont even know i have a blog except for minli i guess. i dont really wanna let too many people whats going on inside my life. anyway im probably gonna go for crescendo already so i wont be able to attend the combined youth camp at the end of the year how sad is that.oh well i guess i got more time to focus on god while im away on this trip cos i must really learn to lean on his promises while im away overseas and not together with all my friends. hmm well there's gonna be another exercise coming up so its kinda crappy la whole day doing this kinda thing. oh well not like we have a choice anymore right. i chose to go in early and i dont wanna have any regrets. after all my parents keep telling me its only for two years and after that i'll be gone from singapore and i wont be coming back to serve my reservice already haha how cool is that huh :D . anyway i guess i still need time to forgive people and also learn to bear with people..but sometimes kumar and stallone really gets on my nerves.hmm maybe if i avoid them then i wont get too worked up. okay i shall keep my distance and also think before saying anything else. then i will refrain from saying anything wrong. well i gotta learn to work with them cos im gonna be here together with them at the end..oh yeah i spent dunno how long looking for ng minli's present la she dint tell me her shoe size..i wanted to buy her a polo shirt of some sort yet i dint know what size she wore..gosh there were so many things i couldnt buy la. and i hope she doesnt read this before she gets the present haha. i bought her all pinky stuff..made me feel oh so gay buying it la.pink shoebag pink pencil case and pink waterbottle from fila! haha hope she really likes it. and i spent quite a bit on her present..the postage almost killed me! well i guess its worth it for our years of friendship and considering how nice she has been to me also :D okay and im thankful our army cohesion is at haw par villa which is extremely near my house la im a happy person now cos finally something is held near my house in the west then i dont hav to wake up so early to go..whoppeeee!